Do something on a rooftop somewhere

Hello again.

So, it's reached that point of the term/year/life that everything is crazy, projects are due and anything that could go wrong does go wrong.

From out-of-control controlled fires messing up plans to work on a project, to the electricity cables for my complex being stolen and leaving us in the dark for just over a day and a half, this past term has been hectic.

It doesn't help much that I'm a procrastinating perfectionist scared of failure. The logic behind this definition is pretty impressive, and no, I didn't think of it by myself. As a perfectionist, you want everything to be perfect. As a procrastinator, you wait until the last minute to do things.

Combine these two together, however, and you get the theory that you procrastinate because you believe that currently you do not have the required skill-sets to successfully complete the assigned task in order to successfully soothe your perfectionist tendencies.

A similar theory is that you procrastinate because you are scared of failure. And wow, this just got deep super fast.

In any case, at this point I decided that I needed to just take a minute and breathe. The stress of everything was getting to me, bringing me down and rendering me almost incapable of working. The voices in my head weren't much help either.

Standing on ground level, I felt as though I was being suffocated, so I decided to go to the top floor of my apartment building, as I unfortunately do not have access to a rooftop near me. Thank goodness the building is open plan of sorts, and I was able to breathe and watch the sunset for a little while.

Proof that I was, in fact, on the 6th floor of my apartment building, which just so happens to be the highest floor of the building.

In my few minutes up there, I breathed deeply and just let the air fill my lungs. Somehow, it felt cleaner, fresher.

My mind felt refreshed when I eventually came back to my flat, and I was able to continue working on my projects.

All-in-all, if you need to take a break, go for it. Sometimes, all you need to feel better is to just stop, take a minute, and breathe. It does a world of good.